We’re all familiar with these rides which are made up of mile long tracks comprised of steel, with ups and downs, loops, twists, and bends. The fun ones are always the ones that go CRAZY! The ones that go SUPER-FAST, and the ones that go really really really really high, and then go suuuuuperrrrrrr low. We like the ones with cool effects such as mist and water, blinding lights, bursts of wind, and gut-wrenching drops. But what about… the boring ones? What makes it boring? When there’s easy going bends, shallow dips, the seats with only the waist bars because it doesn’t require a chest and torso harness due to the lack of spins and loops?
Does this mean that a life filled with minimal ups and downs is — boring? I feel like for as long as I remember, God has made my life relatively easy-going. I mean, there have been bumps here and there, and things that throw me off course for a bit, but everything has been relatively easy going. Not sure if that’s a blessing or a curse. Sometimes life just seems boring. Not that having good, steady, and consistent experiences are bad, it’s just it seems like there’s nothing really happening in my life. Blech.
But on Sunday before going back to school, a slew of things happened that made me frustrated to say the least. I decided to restore my iPhone because there were some “bugs” and some apps weren’t working. Anyway, it deactivated and then I panicked. I had the opportunity to go eat dinner with my Aunt and Uncle who I haven’t seen since 2002, but I selfishly stayed home, trying to fix my “oh so beloved iPhone”. And to no avail, I didn’t even get to fix it until today. I was panicking over such a petty thing, and stressing out about it so much. Also, when my parents came home, it was late and I had to get back to school. My mom was already in a bit of a bad mood, and I could tell that my parents got into a fight. It doesn’t usually happen a lot, but when it does, it completely affects the whole vibe of the family (as I believe most should). Later, I find out that I put my wallet through the washing machine and dryer. LAME! I also forgot my favorite jeans at home, along with my belt and my blankie (HEY DON’T LAUGH!).
Anyway, I feel like this long line of minimal drama in my life leaves me very vulnerable and unprepared for even the littlest of things. I think at times I’m a drama king. But isn’t everyone?
No excuses. That has to change.
Also, just because I’m blogging…
I still can’t seem to get over this. I know it’s been so long, and there’s not really any sense of reciprocation, but I still can’t fully get over it. I want to, but I don’t want to. Wishful thinking is basically the only thing that I’m holding onto, but is it worth it? I know that whenever I like a girl, it just consumes all of my thoughts. My thoughts that should be on God just gravitate towards her. All my motives are shifted towards… her. Maybe that’s why nothing will develop… right now. I have to grow up.
Speaking of that, I have to figure out a lot of things about myself. That’s probably another big thing I should do before pursuing a relationship. Such as, MY MAJOR! blah. I know that a lot of people don’t even end up doing what they majored in college as a career, but I really don’t think I’m cut out for being a math major. I already had to take Calc 1 THREE TIMES (including HS) due to my procrastination, obsession over this girl, and thinking I knew it all. Gosh, I really don’t know what to do. I don’t think thinking about the past will really help me decide either. Just move forward Chris! Anyway, I should go to sleep soon. Gotta get some major work done tomorrow while I have most of the day off. P-P-P-P-PEACE!
